Dresden Dolls: Ampersand

I walk down my street at nightThe city lights are cold and violentI am comforted by the approaching sound of trucks and sirensEven though the world's so bad, these men rush out to help the dyingAnd though I am no use to them, I do my part by simply smilingThe ghetto boys are catcalling meAs I pull my keys from my pocketI wonder if this method of courtship has ever been effectiveHas any girl in history said "Sure, you seem so nice, let's get it on"Still, I always shock them when I answer, "Hi, my name's Amanda"And I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersandAnd even if I went with you, I'm not the girl you think I amAnd I'm not gonna match you, 'cause I'll lose my voice completelyNo, I'm just gonna watch you, 'cause I'm not the one that's crazyI have wasted years of my life agonizing about the fires I startedWhen I thought that to be strong, you must be flame retardantAnd now to dress the wounds calls into question how authentic they areThere's always someong criticizing me: "She just likes playing hospital"Lying in my bed, I remember what you said: "There's no such thing as accidents"But you've got the headstone all ready, all drawn up and prettyYour sick satisfaction, those his and hers matchingThe headstone's all push up'n, pairs to the horizonYour eyes full of ketchup, it's nice that you're tryingThe headstone's all ready, all carved up and prettyYour sick satisfaction, those his and hers matchingThe daisies all push up'n, pairs to the horizonYour eyes full of ketchup, it's nice that you're tryingBut I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersandAnd even if I went with you, I'm not the girl you think I amAnd I'm not gonna match you, 'cause I'll lose my voice completelyNo, I'm just gonna watch you, 'cause I'm not the one that's crazyAs I wake up to a cough, the fire burned the block but ironicallyStopped at my apartment and my housemates are all sleeping soundlyAnd nobody deserves to die for you were awful adamentThat if I didn't love you then you had just one alternativeAnd I may be romantic and I may risk my life for itBut I ain't gonna die for you, you know I ain't no JulietAnd I'm not gonna match, 'cause I'll lose my voice completelyNo, I'm just gonna watch you, 'cause I'm not the one that's crazy