Jewel: Damn the daisies

I go to the tableYour pictures are on the frontI looked so much younger thenSomehow so much differentI look in the mirrorI want to spit on my faceI hate these things I've becomeI don't deserve to take up this spaceThat I live inDark rings around my eyesBruises on my bonesI'm tired of these lies that drip from my mouthLike habitual beads from a broken string of once was loveI go to the drawerI pull out the gunIn my hands it's heavy and coldIt feels like something I was damned to holdDamn you man and your sweet kissesDamn your hairs in the sinkDamn the pool and all the trash it collectedThe leaves only look like blonds and brunettes to meDamn my suspicion and damn my sightDamn you and your twisted waysDamn my courage for being gone so muchDamn love because it stayedI lift the gun to my faceI'm gonna shoot myself in the eyesThe daisies are on the tableThat you gave me yesterdayBut yesterday I was willing to compromiseI hear the key and you open the doorBilly runs to greet youBilly won't hurt anymoreThe sun shines in the windowWhere the pictures and the daisies layThis chaos can't continueI never liked daisies anywayI hear your footstepsComing down the stairsYou reach the bottom with an apology in your handI'm standing thereFunny you have that same look in your eyesAs all those times I had in mineI pull the triggerThe daisies apologize for the last timeBilly runs downstairsI am numbI call the policeTell them what I've doneI go to the tablewhere the pictures and the daisies layI looked so much younger thenSomehow so much differentThe sun shines through the windowWhere the pictures and the daisies layWhere the daisies layWhere the daisies layOh wellNever liked daisies anyway