Anthony Hamilton: Sunshine to the rain

I spent my years isolatedCouldn't live with myselfI was trouble as a young kidMy tears didn't helpVery depressing and it was evidentI'd fade to the deepAll alone like these four walls came at meBarracaded cuz my mind stateI just wanted to dieNever happinessJust sad time living a lieRater leave meI was suicidalSlittin' my wristMamma thinking I was crazyLike use some senseAnd on them days I was feelingI was paining insideIt wasn't meIt was my inner feeling coming aliveI remember waking up like I was going to schoolLeft me standing in the hospitalLocked in this roomPut awayI was a troubled kid losing my mindFallin' shortOf what they expected from me everytimeSo don't fault me if you meet meAnd I look to be strangeI'm just mad that the sunshine dies in the rain[Chorus]Sunshine to the rainWhen it comes it goes againEven when the story endsJust turn the page and begin againSunshine on cloudy daysDon't hate me I'll never changeThankful I was made this wayYour sunshine for cloudy daysNow I was raised in a neighborhoodWith half of a dimeIf you was real it was understoodIt showed in your eyesEvery corner had a different hustleSprawled on your faceDrug warsGrowin' up raw cuz violence the case.... had to move alongQuiet it's keptSpoken words got you dealt withSo ride with yourselfI'm a juvenileThey telling me get down for they wealthNo getting highCuz when you gettin' highYou needing some helpAs far as helpMine was middle thoughYou know how that goPsychologicallyI deal with demons talkin' in codesHopefully, I'll get to meet JesusSomewhere on this roadSick of hearing people screaming in my head saying noBetter of if I was deadCuz they killing me slowAll in all it's just a part of my lifeWatching the showAin't nothing never came to niggaz sleepExcept for a dreamIt's like a movie with the ending credits etched in the screen[Chorus]I prayed my last days of sunshineJust die in the rainKinda selfishBut I know that dyingEases the painHeartfelt wordsSpoken hurtProvided the frameFor the picture I done painted for the master to explainSo I leave behind my testimonyWitness to giveFar from holyBut this matrimony provided the scriptTo live onAnd live byGrow up and grow onGet on and get bySo forth and so onAnd this here's the last daysI can hear the horns singin'I can see the red skyI can hear the drum beatingI seen the dead dieHow long will they mourn JesusAt least I'm saved by my scriptural warn readingsAnd while leaving you hereBelieve what you believe inBut you don't want to not believeBelieve in seeingDon't take this here too personalCuz I'm just speakingThis is my family on my mind[Chorus]