Faithiles: Giving myself away

In background - "Do what I have to"Remember Emily?[In background - "That's a long time" 2x]In a long dress one summers day she said yesNow every special requests requires anotherSo many times it feels endless, a big yesBranded red on each breastBut she selfless out thereDoing her best strangest sceneNobody seemed to be impressed.The more she do for this foolThe more she behind scheduleHad no fun for so longOld records turned her onto High School flingsAnd she was full of daringColorful hair used to wear thirteen ringsNow she staring gludgeryFull in the face and accepts it as her placeAnd just incase there's anything she missed,She recheck the listDoes it over again,To make sure it's spotless.Jimmy longed for how it used to be,She was viscous and volatileShe was feisty, iced tea was the tipple never asked nicelyHer lips used to Curl down ever so slightly, impolite,Fire burned bright behind the Oakley,We just had to get to grips.After a few long sipped juice begin to lose flavour,She no longer gets to savor being consumed.Jimmy sleeps drunk in the other room still in his shoes Escaping head long into the booze,The whole house vibrating with the changes of moods.From feisty she turned into being nice to meIn the old days he'd of been wearing Ice T,Jimmy Cradles times return,She was fine and so beautifully unconcerned.Jimmy Told her on the day he quitYou don't love me you love the relationshipMe?I'm the prodeney product of Misogheny,Jimmy and Emily HarmogenyThey promised me nothing but honesty,And that's all I got,I could never be the cement in their destiny,They still haven't forgiven me,You know my own woman is leaving meSaid she stopped believing me,Cant even see what she saw in me,I told my woman she was beautiful,She didn't believe,Convinced herself I was preparing to leave,so she took my son and left the world free.I told my woman she was beautiful Ten Times a Day,Ten Times a Day she would Smile, and look away.I end up throwing my love down a bottomless pit.And giving myself away...