Jasmine Guy: Disapointed

I'm disapointed i'm feelingTired and grumpy and all i seeIs everyone's smile and them laughingAnd chatting and all i do is justSit and i was quietI use to beA girl who liked being alittle by herselfAnd now i some reason love to be with a crowdAnd today i felt so badfelt a feeling so darkGot mixed up in emotionsWhen the family talked to meI didn't know how to react causeOf what i was feeling insideFelt i was fading a bitFelt as if i was going to cryFamily make me feel cunferdaleAnd i make them feel a little differentEverytime i am there to see themI'm always changing and i'm always in a moodThey don't know about or understandI'm disapointed cause i couldn't cope with people being happy around me all i could do was feel sad and mad and felt a little confused i was feeling like the wall fell on my head and i wasdead and at the time i couldn'tbearly stand beingin a room full i was so confused and unsure i didn't know how to reactI felt as if i was going to ball my eyes outThe girl i use to be was so quietI use to love laughing for the soulAnd now all i am is feeling badAngry tired mad and disapointedAll i want is me to just grow upAnd take no stress in my lifeI'm so disapointed in myself todayI felt as if the wall had knocked me downAnd i was a completly different personI am so confused i was about to cryI was so disapointedAnd now i bearly can stand myselfThe girl i used to be was so quietSo true to herself of what she wanted to beAs she grown up..love family love friends just alittle too much all at once happingAnd i couldn't stand being in a room so fullFelt as if i'd beening pushed to the limit i can't standFelt as if i was going to ball my eyes outIt all started friday 24th of decemberAnd all i am feeling is disapointedIts completly made me feel disapointedHow can i be this way at such a wonderful time of year.