JP Saxe: When You Think Of Me

Feels like a disrespectful oversimplification
to say ‘we wanted different things’
To brush it off with an explanation
like attachment styles and timing

You were my everything
Maybe that’s part of the problem
But I wouldn’t change a thing
Not from the moment it started

When you think of me
are you setting fire to every memory
And do you believe
What doesn’t last forever don’t mean anything
Cuz I swear I loved you fully
And I’m sorry not for staying
Who we thought I’d be
When you think of me
Am I just another man who leaves
Just another man who leaves

I hate myself for hurting you
But it would make it worse to fix it
I wish i’d figured out a way of keeping myself in it
Cuz I meant to be the man you were standing with
not another tally line to justify your fear of abandonment
and I hate how I lived up to your worst fears
Makes it worse how it worked so well for three years
And it could all be for the best in the end
But for now it feels like losing my best friend

When you think of me
are you setting fire to every memory
And do you believe
What doesn’t last forever don’t mean anything
Cuz I swear I loved you fully
And I’m sorry not for staying
Who we thought I’d be
When you think of me
Am I just another man who leaves
Just another man who leaves

You were my everything
Maybe that’s part of the problem
But I wouldn’t change a thing
Not from the moment it started

When you think of me
are you setting fire to every memory
And do you believe
What doesn’t last forever don’t mean anything
Cuz I swear I loved you fully
And I’m sorry not for staying
Who we thought I’d be
When you think of me
Am I just another man who leaves
Just another man who leaves
Just another man who leaves