Killing Heidi: Notebook

I was looking through your notebook
Without a lock, just like a little book
Open it up, gotta have a look
See what you're up to even though you didn't want me to
Oh want me to
Gotta check up on all the things you wrote
Sizing me up, I make a mental note
Figure it out, gotta crack the code
Uncover a sign that's gonna show me what you want to do
What you want to do
Feel it fall apart now baby

'Cause I'm tired but I can't stay asleep anymore
'An it's time that I found out what all this was for

Cover it up, I'm gone without a trace
Take it into my secret hiding place
Making it grow big in a little space
Now I'm doing all the things you told me not to do
Oh what not to do
'Cause I was looking through your notebook
Without a lock, just like a little book
Open it up, gotta have a look
See what you're up to even though you didn't want me to
Oh want me to

'Cause I'm tired but I can't stay asleep anymore
An' it's time that I found out what all this was for
Oh an' I'm tired but I can't stay asleep anymore
Oh an' it's time that I found it was nothing

Your roots they grow in the soil of my fear
Gotta get you all out, I can't breathe with you here
Your twisted reign felt like a thousand years
I no longer feel close to the things that I'm near
Your vision appears, I feel clouded and dumb
I don't wanna feel nothing, don't want to be numb
Gotta purify all those places you've been
'Cause you got in so deep and did damage unseen

'Cause I'm tired but I can't stay asleep anymore
An' it's time that I found out what all this was for
Oh an' I'm tired but I can't stay asleep anymore
An' it's time that I found out what all this was for

And you tear it apart, apart
Oh you tear it apart