Lapis Lazuli: Darker Shade of Me

Come listen close, and I will tell you my tale
If you listen, then I will teach you my ways, where it went wrong

If you hear this, then you might learn where to go
If you hear this, then i will tell you to turn, head back home

Once I lived at peace with me
My life had found its balance and
I thought I knew, I thought I saw
I thought I understood

But then it came, that dreadful night
where everything would turn around
Then darkness came into my mind
And the light inside me died

I was changed, the good in me
was drowned beneath my supressed rage
Misery loves company
And I would give him that

The mirrors truth, a twisted mind
the horrors of a thousand nightmares
I was trapped inside myself
A prison of the mind

I'm alone now, am I lost again
They are gone now, I am lost again

Where I'm heading theres no sunshine
just a darker shade of me
Where I'm going there is nothing
But an endless road ahead

I am blinded, can't see nothing
but a darker shade of me
I can't think of any reason
That will make this turn around

Haunted by my darker side
My life began to fall around me
My hopes and dreams are slowly dying
Nothing left but black

The things I loved, they are all gone
Destroyed by my own hands, they fall
A hollow heart, my solitude
Their blood is on my hands

Im alone now, am I lost again
They are gone now, I am lost again

Where im heading theres no sunshine
just a darker shade of me
Where im going there is nothing
But an endless road ahead

I am blinded, can't see nothing
but a darker shade of me
I can't think of any reason
That will make this turn around

Nothing but a dream, only images
of a life that has long been lost

Only misery, only solitude
only nightmares when im

Falling, falling, falling
I am only
Falling, falling, falling
I am falling

I have lost myself, I am dead inside
I can't think of a single moment

When I saw myself as I want to be
only darkness when im

Falling, falling, falling
I am only
Falling, falling, falling
I am falling