New Years Day: Brilliant Lies

I'm trying to sleep,
But this pain in my chest,
It's keeping me awake,
And every breath I take,
Feels like it's my last,
I want to be fine,
I want to be sure,
I want to be a lot of things,
And none of them include you.

I keep telling myself I'm not miserable,
I keep telling myself I'm better off without you,
I believed that you meant everything you said,
Good bye and thanks for the memories,
For the pain and lies
Every time I had to cry,
Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

I don't understand,
Because it doesn't make sense,
The way you broke it off,
Took away my heart,
Took away all my friends,
I want to go out,
And get out of this house,
But to begin again is gonna take more than I think I'd ever have to give.

I keep telling myself I'm not miserable,
I keep telling myself I'm better off without you,
I believed that you meant everything you said,
Good bye and thanks for the memories,
For the pain and lies
Every time I had to cry,
Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

I believe that I was so cleverly deceived,
By good looks, some charm, and a brilliant lie,
All the time that was spent being used I should have said,
Goodbye and thanks for the memories.

I want to know why you're such an idiot,
I want to know how you can even live with it,
I want to know why I should even give a damn,
About you missing me so terribly,
I'm starting to sleep a little easier now,
Now that I'm over this,
And I've made up my mind to never fall in love again,
With someone like you, someone so confused,
I just wish I would have realized that a long time before I had

I keep telling myself I'm not miserable,
I keep telling myself I'm better off without you,
I believed that you meant everything you said,
Good bye and thanks for the memories,
For the pain and lies
Every time I had to cry,
Goodbye and thanks for the memories.