Q Strange: Eternal bliss

This is for all the lost souls, there is hope Happiness is all I want but I am caught by misery And no one understands or even cares if I just live or die There is only one way out and I am not afraid to take it It's the only way I say is Su-i-cide {*repeat 3X*} This kids mom died when he was just fifteen Left with his house his pops was a dope fiend Who didn't give a fuck about him He even thinks that he'd be better off without him He goes to school with no friends and he's mad for He misses his mom even though she was a crack whore Comes through the backdoor so dad wont see Cuz after school at 3' he gets greeted with a beat He has to go around with smelly clothes and no socks While other kids rocked new Nike's and Reeboks He's not happy with his miserable existence Sometimes he has the urge to just say 'Good Riddance' Grew up around drugs but never thought about trying it Tried to not become a product of his environment He tried even to talk to his pillow like a psychiatrist Screaming in to it 'Why did she have to die' Mom was in a program to get off the stuff I guess she wasn't ready, or strong enough But if she was alive it wouldn't be good either Cuz dad used to beat her every day and mistreat her He hates his father but it's all he has left He doesn't want to live because he's afraid of death But maybe he think that he'd be better off dead He grabbed a paper and a pen, wrote a note and it said: (Chorus X 3) He feels a little nervous because he doesn't know what left it What be the best to end it He's starting to cry now. Time now he wants to just think it through Life stinks it's true but there's got to be a better way A better day may come but it ain't likely 'It's a constant battle in this life, It fights me' He thinks that he's a coward but in fact he's real brave Never gave in to temptations that put his mother in the grave He wants to be saved, but no one hears his cries for help except for god in heaven, still he wants to kill himself He wasn't brought up to know about god and the bible He own short life was spent nothing but survival Suicidal thoughts evading his young mind Sunshine is something he ain't seen in a long time He can't take the loneliness and the sadness Goes in the other room and gives his dad a kiss Even though he's passed out from the drugs He still only has - and in a way still loves him He wants to join his mom in eternal bliss Got in the bathtub and sliced his wrist As he watched his blood pour out the veins and down the drain He said goodbye to the pain (Crying) (Chorus) - repeat 4X There is hope, you can get help There's somebody you can talk to There is hope (Chorus) - repeat 2X