Atmosphere: Caved in

[D. Turner]The door opened, in walked my brotherTerrified, teary-eyed, I'm wide openOnly to hear our father diedIt's not true, I'm hopin'I need some air, I'm chokinGet me off this ride, where's life goin?Feelin' I'm lost, I'm frozenSuspended in mid-traumatized stateWhy I'm chosen for this fate? I don't knowHead shakes back and forth emotionalUnsociable, not speakin'Remainin silent, cause I'm weakenedDeep inside I'm freakin'Want my father back, I need himWhy's God cheatin?Takin' half the two that gave me lifeMy mind replaces thought, now no longer can I sleep at nightNot feelin' right, insecure, now what's my future lookin' like?Ain't dealt with death before, age 11 and can't take no moreMy hands on the floor cause my stomachs feelin' sick and I wasmad at the LordBecause he took him all too quick that dayOn his way to pick me up, he never made itBlamed it all on myself, therefore I dwelled in self-hatredOn a path called destruct, many thought I wouldn't make itI hate it, the way I feel, but I just can't seem to shake itSomebody take it away, this mad situationMy world is breakin' and I feel I'm 'bout to cave in[Chorus x2]I tried to take it all inAfter it all settled I couldn't beginAccepting you were gone, but understood[D.Turner]Hey dad, I miss you, for everyday goneAnd for the rest of my life, try to remain strongUntil we reunite, live on, your memoryFrom the seeds you planted gentlyThanks for being there for meAnd all the time you spent with meLove sent for me(?), if I could only have that day backTo sit down and rap, shoot the breeze and have a chatBut the fact still remains, still later, on the day I have tomeet our makerI write my feelings on the paper, for nowAlong the golf course where you once playedI see you as I drive by, I feel you like your presence is thereI stop and I stare, I see the pictures of days we sharedWell aware that you cared, makin sure I was prepared for lifeThe hardships, the struggles, the garbage, and the troublesThat come with it, always kept my head liftedI grip it close to my heart, everthing you taught meMy dad, my hero, you have my love for all eternity[Chorus x4]I tried to take it all inAfter it all settled I couldn't beginAccepting you were gone, but understood