Eleven: F**k My Life

Should I pretend
Sound like I care?
Don't give me your sinister stare
The universe seems not to care for me

Failure is my closest friend
Can't wait to see this bullshit end
Will I ever find a place to be in?

My focus is all gone
My mistakes can't be undone
Is there a reason to keep going on?

Why even bother
Fighting for so long
Thought it'd be over
When I ran as far as I could go
Can't let my past take over
Even though I'm craving closure
I fight myself all over
Time after time
Fuck my life

Mistakes I made in fear of loss
Have led me to collision course
I finally got to see what I've become
My actions weren't clear to me
I ran away in shame and fear
It's time to face the consequences now
We've been friends for so long
But you can't trust me anymore
There is no single way it won't go wrong
All fault is on my side
Seems I truly lost my mind
It took me years to see
I was so blind

Why even bother (Fuck my life)
Fighting for so long
Thought it'd be over (Fuck my life)
When I ran as far as I could go
Can't let my past take over
Even though I'm craving closure
I fight myself all over
Time after time
Fuck my life

Stop giving me a chance
Can't you see I am no friend
I hurt all those I love
It has to end
Why should you forgive?
It seems I failed you on repeat
It's so much easier to accept defeat

So why even bother...
Fighting for what we had?
I know it's over
It's too late to bring it back
I can't promise you
It will all get better soon
I fight myself still too
But am I still here?
Am I alive?
Fuck my life

So why even bother...
Fighting for what we had?
I know it's over
It's too late to bring it back
I can't promise you
It will all get better soon
I fight myself still too
But am I still here?
Am I alive?
Fuck my life

So why even bother...
Fighting for what we had?
I know it's over
It's too late to bring it back
I can't promise you
It will all get better soon
I fight myself still too
But am I still here?
Am I alive?
Fuck my life

So why even bother...
Fighting for what we had?
I know it's over
It's too late to bring it back
I can't promise you
It will all get better soon
I fight myself still too
But am I still here?
Am I alive?
Fuck my life