Ms.Dynamite: Father

I spent 23 years trying to be what you wanted me to bethough it seemed like you couldn't save me'til I picked up the mic and I was on the TVnow you're ringing off my phone like every weekwhere were you at 6,7,11 and 13 when shit was impossibleMama left nine months pregnant but she came home alone from the hospitalHow could you call yourself a man if you can't love your only lesson can't contol themyou'd rather destroy their souls and she was 13 years old and you couldn't protected the innocence from being stolenAnd I don't give a damn what you was going through and mama wasn't ableto put food on the tableYou left the family unstableNow you come around and act like you were some kind of a praiselYou can't play like you daddy nowand you can't claim shit 'cause you weren't aroundAnd you can't get mad but what can you do?You can't tell me shit I'm grown without youI spent 23 years trying to be the fucking man you should betaking care of your responsibilityputting clothes on our back and shoes on our feet no helpbut you always had your bag of weedwhere were you on 12,13, 14 and 15 when life was unliveableMomma was so damn angry the way she treated me was unforgiveableYou call yourself a man your oldest son he had to learn from his sisterHow to put a niggers fist up, how to fuck a niggers shit up and I cut any motherfucker that had come and tried to diss usAnd I don't give a damn what you was going through and I needed saving I spent my every second blazing a little girl with the blade in and trying to fuck up and take my life just wanted to dig my grave inYou can't play like you daddy nowand you can't claim shit 'cause you weren't aroundAnd you can't get mad but what can you do? (now what you gonna do?)You can't tell me shit I'm grown without you You can't play like you daddy nowand you can't claim shit 'cause you weren't aroundAnd you can't get mad but what can you do? (you can't do a damn thing)You can't tell me shit I'm grown without youI'm grown without youI've grown without youCan't come and trynna tell me tonight