Kleenex Girl Wonder: Ain't Going Anywhere Soon

Tell me why am I feeling this way?
I didn't think and I'm paying for it now
Well I knew this was coming someday
But I didn't think this would be how

Tell me why am I feeling like this?
Soon enough, I'll be gone, and I'll say
That I'm sorry I gave you that kiss
Cause I knew I would take it away

So as you struggle I can't hold your hand
But when you wonder where I am
And on New Year's Eve when you kiss someone new
There's nothing much more I can say to you
Because everything's been said before
But if you want I'll tell you some more more more

Cause I ain't going anywhere soon
No matter what you say or do
I'll get back on that bus and I'll ride back home and be blue

Yeah I ain't going anywhere soon
I've followed the sun, so I can follow the moon
And I know I'll come back cause I ain't going anywhere soon

I can't tell you the things I should say
I've already done damage enough
I must decide under skies cold and gray
Am I coming back or calling the bluff?

So just tell me which one I hate more
To have you mad here or glad far away?
And tell me why did I sprint for the door
And assume the worst for every word you'd say?

Oh I've told you what you mean to me, but that's all so much talk
I've listened as you told me things and watched you like a hawk
The only thing that counts right now is what will happen next
And I can say a million things but every single one is out of context

So tell me why couldn't I take it slow?
I spit out all those words I knew I'd regret
I told myself I could just get up and go
But I haven't gone anywhere yet

I can drive I can drive I can drive
But I can't turn the radio on
Cause I see 43-35
And I still ain't too sure if you're gone

So as I struggle you can't hold my hand
But take my word for it, I understand
Mildew of the summer and the deepening snow
Are both alike in the routine I know

Cause I ain't going anywhere soon
I don't know what it is about you
But I know I'll be back and I know I won't know what to do

No I ain't going anywhere soon
I'll just sit here in my empty room
In the ranch that I built for you mumbling say it ain't true

So say it ain't true
Say it ain't true...
No I ain't going anywhere soon....