Dawid Tyszkowski: Koszulka

Today, I’m not taking off my shirt again.
You can leave now.
Or we can stay in silence.
Because I’m so ashamed.
That I won’t be able to sleep tonight.
You can be here
Just let the lights dim.
And my hands, and stomach, and toes-
They still mean so much to me.

No, no, I can’t look, I can’t look at myself anymore.
No, no, I’m slowly fading away, slowly my blood pressure is dropping.

Today
Don’t pay any attention to me.
Let me go.
I can feel you watching.
Because I’m so ashamed
My clothes are too small.
I know well that I can’t control my body.
And my hands, and stomach, and toes-
They still mean so much to me.

No, no, I can’t look, I can’t look at myself anymore.
No, no, I’m slowly fading away, slowly my blood pressure is dropping.

Slowly, I’m getting tired of this.
And every moment the storm is getting closer.
Slowly, I start to feel like I’m swimming alone.
No one is with me, it’s just me.