Dianah Kay: Self-destructive Habit

Crying in the backseat hiding my face
Lying with my blurry eyes
Watching as the lights go by

Someone told me you have found somebody else
Heard you even settled down
Before we even said goodbye

So many times that I’ve felt guilty
But now I’m all alone
It’s hard to hide this feeling
Guess I’m addicted to the hurt

Cause when I’m in this city all I see is you
And there are certain songs that I can’t listen to
And everything you do feels like a manic move
Doesn’t look desperate when you're sightless

And everybody told me ‘bout the things you do
That many turned into a mess trynna fix you
I know this way I’ll never move on from you
You’re my favourite self destructive habit
Self destructive habit

So tell me one last time, were you for real?
When you cried your eyes out, how did it feel?

I really hope you’re doing well
It has been a while since then

Everytime I check my phone
And I don’t see your name
Im caught up in between relief and what I didn’t say

Cause when I’m in this city all I see is you
And there are certain songs that I can’t listen to
And everything you do feels like a manic move
Doesn’t look desperate when you're sightless

And everybody told me ‘bout the things you do
That many turned into a mess trynna fix you
I know this way I’ll never move on from you
You’re my favourite self destructive habit
Self destructive habit

And although it’s so hard for me to see you leaving
You will never ever see me bleeding
If being in love is just as easy as breathing
why are we supposed to be healing?

Cause when I’m in this city all I see is you
And there are certain songs that I can’t listen to
And everything you do feels like a manic move
Doesn’t look desperate when you're sightless

And everybody told me ‘bout the things you do
That many turned into a mess trynna fix you
I know this way I’ll never move on from you
You’re my favourite self destructive habit