Hogwash - Imaginary flower

I'm sitting at the table while my friends Are talkin' and I'm Wasting my ninth life and stealing ideas from a book So they can believe I'm strong The giggling schoolgirls Who speak loudly about sex Are nymphs who grin when I bleed And it seems they enjoy watching me But I know someday I'll laugh about this Nowhere, and nowhere And all points 'tween... I'm but a cloud in the breeze Seeing her stepping out from my blood Hurts me so much Distant wind chimes bring me back to my pains I'm no longer young enough to escape Her lies, She suspects nobody makes bets on Oh she'll never understand That wishing won't make it true Well now I'm sure I'm not bleeding alone