Alesana: Last three letters

Dearest love,I hope this message finds you wellas these endless thoughts drip from my soulevery single word secretly paints a fairytaleof when we will melt into one...Eyes forfeit sight to the paincold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very coreas I cling to memories of youI am so scared...so scared...I need you with meWere the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell youthat in my death the light that shone through my painful darknesswas a blinding vision of your eternal smile?It's me again,is it me or am I wrong to be concerned?will the beauty of your pen ever cross my eyes again?was this all a lie? why?Were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell youthat in my death the light that shone through my painful darknesswas a blinding vision of your eternal smile?Make it stop, make this pounding in my head stopfill my lungs with air, give me one more day to make her dreams come trueshe understands right? that I'm not coming back...she understands right? that I'm not coming back...make it stop, make the pounding stopI'm not coming back, I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back...I don't know what happened...who would have thought my life would end up like this?I didn't mean to hurt her, not hurt her like this...I can't feel my legsI can't feel my legs and I can't even cry...how could somebody die like this?If my words ever reach you I'll assume you don't carenever knew that silence could cut so deep or that you could twist the bladenow I curse all of your beautiful lies..I love you and goodbye...Were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell youthat in my death the light that shone through my painful darknesswas a blinding vision of your eternal smile?Cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very coreas I cling to my memories of you...