Anja Garbarek: Beyond My Control

It happens that someone knocks at my door
Then the whole house starts to shake
So that it gets really hard to stand up
And even worse to walk
I usually fall down
On the floor
And i stay there
Until that someone decides to leave
And the house calms down
And i look through the curtains
To see if he would regret
To see if he would try again

It happens that someone calls me on the phone
And my house gets so scared
That it jumps right up into my throat
I swallow like crazy
Hoping my heart will glide
Back down
So i can talk to that someone
Maybe talk to a friend
But it is too late
But it is too late

It is beyond my control
If i don't open up the door
It is beyond my control
If i don't answer your calls
I'm not to blame
It isn't my fault
It was you that make my house shake
It was you that made my heart jump
It was you that make my house shake
It was you that made my heart jump

And it happens that i take a walk outside
Just to get some nice fresh air
And it happens that i see someone i knew
A long long time ago

Then i just see him to disappear
Becoming one with a wall
Becoming one with a lampost
Becoming one with a tree
Becoming one with a street
Becoming one with a house
Becoming one with a door
Becoming one with you all

It is beyond my control
If i don't open up the door
It is beyond my control
If i don't answer you call
It is beyond my control
If i just seem to disappear
It is beyond my control
If i am suddenly not here
I'm not to blame
It isn't my fault
It was you that make my house shake
It was you that made my heart jump
It was you that make my house shake
It was you that made my heart jump

It was you who came my way