Ekoh: Where'd You Go

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
I don't think I’ve ever felt so alone

Some days they just don’t hit
Some days I wanna quit,
Give up all the music s** and dip
I used to think that this would make me happy if I made it but lately I’ve just been so uninspired and keep complaining bout everything in my life and home
I’m always on the phone
More people listen now but I’ve never felt more alone.
I don’t know if that’s a product of the job or more the fact I call it a job now and I refuse to stop when I feel I’m rundown to try to see my friends,
if you ignore enough of em you’ll stop receiving texts.
And when I am around em in too stuck inside my head
So then i don’t enjoy the moment, I just fear the day it ends so
I want you to know I’m a little fd up.
And I just can’t shake it
More close to breaking than I’ve ever been at any point in my whole life
Stayin up and talkin to myself like

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
I don't think I’ve ever felt so alone

My girl loves, but don’t know if she’s still in love with me
I ain’t had a drug but don’t feel like I’m in recovery
Overthink the future then everything starts to f*** with me
Feel like I’ll get used for this content until they're done with me
But I should be happy, look at these numbers doubling
All the while the thoughts have just gradually gotten troubling
Got an empty tank it's just fear and depression runnin me
While i built this up my life was crumbling….down
They say that everything in life is beautiful
I try to keep that that in the forefront of my mind, but
Yesterday i fantasized my funeral….
And thats the happiest i’ve been in some time, so
I dont know whats goin on
But i know it used to help when I would put it in these songs
I always feared that i would end up here just like my mom
When she would isolate and get depressed then try to end it all.
Yea it’s scary cuz I finally understand
That all the things you thought would fix the problem really can’t
Like why the f*** I feel this way if nothing’s really bad?
Cuz happiness is not the absence of being sad, so
I guess im kinda f’d up and i just cant shake it
More close to breakin than ive ever been at any point in my whole life
Lookin back at all the good times we felt like

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
I don't think I’ve ever felt so alone