Lilly Hates Roses - Only a thought

Just tell me the truth, don't let me believe
Don't give me hope for what doesn't exist.
Your words are like guns but I want to be shot.
To be on our own, it was only a thought

Without running out of breath
and crying out in sleep.
Without passing any tests
just say it loud and clear...

(or do not say a thing!)

Push me to the ground and leave me there
I'll try to figure out, my own happy-end.
The further it goes, it's harder to stop
We're wasting away but it was only a thought?