Marilyn Manson: By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me
Do I follow my instincts blindly
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening
Do I sit here and try to stand it
Or do I try to catch them red-handed
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live life in lonliness
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily faciade but then
I just end up getting hurt again by myself
Myself
I ask why
Myself
I cant rely on myself
Myself
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I cant rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when i'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything, watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back i'm senseless
And to blindly seem defenseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outrun
But if I try to catch them I'll be outdone
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer by myself
Myself
I ask why
Myself
I can't rely on myself
Myself
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself
In my mind I find
I can't hold on
To what I want when i'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything, watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
How do you think
Ive lost so much
Im so afraid (echo fade)
Im out of touch
How do you expect (expect)
I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
I can't hold on
To what I want when i'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything, watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
I can't hold on
To what I want when i'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything, watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking