Russ: That Was Me

You know that was me stayin up puttin work in
Making sure my family was good we were hurtin
Dad lost his job bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came thru when it mattered
You know that was me turnin losses to laughter
Divvy up the cash makin sure we all eat
Bring us all together makin sure we all speak

Wasn’t gettin sleep I was focused on the prize
Heavy smokin weed drinkin liquor every night
The girl I was in love with wasn’t just for me
I tried to show her things she didn’t wanna see
My parents were embarrassed hated seein them like that
They carried me this far it’s time I put em on my back
My songs were breaking through
My car was breaking down
Yea the pressure grew
I had to make it now
The awkward conversations and the fights increased
The days were chaotic so the nights were my peace
I’m locked in like woah woah

You know that was me stayin up puttin work in
Making sure my family was good we were hurtin
Dad lost his job bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came thru when it mattered
You know that was me turnin losses to laughter
Divvy up the cash makin sure we all eat
Bring us all together makin sure we all speak

Tried to keep the peace I was hiding how I felt
Only 23 takin care of things myself
Payin all the bills everyone was broke
All the while still tryna be the goat

I’m lonely all the time but I’ve always held my tongue
It’s been 6 years since I wasp a brother or a son
My father lost his voice he said money speaks
They didn’t have a choice they had to come to me
The awkward conversations and the fights increased
The days were chaotic so the nights were my peace
I’m locked in like woah woah

You know that was me stayin up puttin work in
Making sure my family was good we were hurtin
Dad lost his job bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came thru when it mattered
You know that was me turnin losses to laughter
Divvy up the cash makin sure we all eat
Bring us all together makin sure we all speak

I cut off everybody didn’t have no time to party
I’m tryna get these fans and build a motherfuckin army
Cuz no one’s gonna save us but me so I got us
I said that I would I gotta keep my promise

Missed out on a lot yea my 20s were a blur
My mind was always focused on the future that’s for sure
But I’d sacrifice it again and again
To make sure my fam doesn’t go thru that again

Oh I been on my own my own
Oh I been on my own my own

You know that was me stayin up puttin work in
Making sure my family was good we were hurtin
Dad lost his job bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came thru when it mattered
You know that was me turnin losses to laughter
Divvy up the cash makin sure we all eat
Bring us all together makin sure we all speak