Sanctuary Rig - Just For The Record

I was on first-name terms with Gods and Queens
But you negated that, you said you didn't need it
I was the monkey wrench in all your schemes
But I was always short and, God, you made me feel it
No turning back, no magic wand
I broke my gaesa without trying
And if we had a sacred bond
How could we leave each other crying?

You were not the only one
Who suffered in the war
Unspoken poems and broken bones
I've never seen their like before
I was not the only one
Who couldn't quite let go
Let the record show...

You were the magistrate of all my songs
And they were always keen to play the role you cast them
You were the clerk collating all my wrongs
And when the court resumed you couldn't quite see past them
Delusional come closing time
I had no voice for my confusion
The killing floor, your mask sublime
I preferred the safety of delusion!

I should not have knelt beneath
The monument of shame
I should not have nursed the dmon
Fed him and apportioned blame
I should not have forced the hand
Of fortune, now I know
Let the record show...

Must I fall into the madness of confessing
And obsessing over things I cannot change?
Must I walk into the sadness of remembrance
Independence doesn't always quiet your pain

But I never meant to break you down
Lonely rider in a one-horse town
My reputation as a faded clown
Is keeping me from sleep at night
I toss and turn
I don't know where to go
I know it wasn't right to blight you
But somebody had to show
That everything is torn
Long before that bitter morn
I know...

O bleak inspector of my tapestries
If I dropped a stitch I knew that you'd be waiting
You ask me why should you go on your knees
Just because my ego needs fellating
And when I made to abdicate
You shot the guards and stormed the palace
When Wonderland broke up the band
You found me playing draughts with Alice

You and I should not have fallen
Victim to the curse
I only tried to live a lie
Cos honesty is so much worse
Fair to say I rue the day
I dealt the final blow
Let the record show...