Silence 4: My Friends

I was so lost in my pain, fear was melting my brain,
I was counting the days to insanity, I was afraid to move myself
Afraid to hurt myself, more than I had until that day
Everything I believed in and everything I fought for
Was now underneath my feet and my heart beat
Was so gone, couldn't be felt by anyone
So alone it gave me the creeps
My drugs got me in bed
Went up to my head
And I really don't wanna depend
So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Never thought would be like this
No one told me it would be like this
I'm amazed, I'm amazed with myself
And my brain and my pain
And my pain and my veins
Are delivering it to my health
My self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken
And it left me with an empty life and this knife
Rests on the middle of my bed, I think in all the things she said
Close my eyes and sleep
All these drugs in my head,
It seems I'm already dead
And I really don't want to depend
So I'll stick to

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends

Can't smoke anymore, can't drink anymore,
Still I do it, I do it again
Lost everything I had,
Far from mum, far from dad
I thank God for my good, good friends
But where's this God that I mention? Where is He right now?
As I die as slowly as I can? All my plans, went down the hole
My life has no goal, and I wonder if this is worth it
But my friends took my hand
Helped me to lift myself again
And that's why I really love

My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends
Martini until the end
Play pool again
My friends and my friends and my car and my friends
My friends and my cards and my car and my friends