Vanguart: Foreign complaint

I got something to write before this letter slips inI got no one by my side and finally now, i feel fineAs the leaves are falling, as the sun is going down.My eyes are in the wind, but every summer they melt downHere no one knows my name, they never see me aroundI pretend i'm from spain and i don't even go outI never thought it would be so hard to live in other townAnd i always remind of you when sleep gets me downEvery dusk i watch, well, it always leaves me sadCause that time i got you, the dawn was the time to bedAnd i never saw the dawn anymore, now i have to crawlTo get up from the bed, and then get off of the groundI'm not looking for and i couldn't even get a jobLately i'm too weak and i still got the bucks you gave mePeople scream that i'm a slob, but i pretend it's not with meI just keep my face straight, with my eyes staring at my feetSometimes i miss my rock'n'roll records and my friendsBut as long as i'll die, they'll take me out of their headsI'm not saying i was unwanted, it's just something usualMaybe i never really liked'em but i miss them allLast week i went to a bar, and there was no one at it.And i've been thinking how sometimes love's hard to fitI remembered when i's a child and how beautiful were my hairAnd when i discovered that love's something hard to bearBut when the bar closed down, i started my thinkin' againAnd going back home i cried a little bit but thenI cleaned my face with memories from my mom and my dadAnd for a quick moment i forgot that they are deadI heard someone saying love's bitter, well, i didn't disagreeBut later when i was sleeping i've been waken by a dreamI don't remember well, but i only know it was about youThen i passed all the day upset till i accept that i love youBut you know life goes on, as it goes on your lifeAnd i'd be lying if i said that someday i'll be backCause these words haunt myself, i prefer to ignore the painCause i'll always love you, but i don't want to see you again.